Lord thank you for having your hand on me. I can look back and see how you shut doors and closed me in to protect me. Thank you for growing me closer to you in a time when all around me was darkness. You set my heart on fire for you. My earnest prayer was to be used by you. And even though I didn't know it at the time I was in a battle for my life. Lord thank you for choosing me. Thank you for blinding me to anything that would not make me stronger in you Lord. When I was lonely you drew me closer to you, when I was hurt you built me up. I've sought you earnestly and you have taught me to put complete faith in you and you alone. You have never failed me Lord. Thank You.
I was a part of United Faith for 10 years. The man I thought to be my pastor, my shepherd turned out to be a very evil minded man. He hurt many people with his sins but the Lord my God cannot be mocked. Vengeance belongs to the Lord and He will not be mocked. My prayer continues to be that the flock be strengthened by this and that they draw closer to the Lord and never put faith in man.
My God is so good, that even while I was in the fire I was untouched. I was able to blossom and grow because I was seeking the Lord with all my heart. I was bearing fruit while this evil man was choking the life out of others. My God will bring beauty from the ashes of those who were scorched. God is good all the time, this is my prayer, draw near to Him.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
This week I found myself wrestling with the big questions in life. What direction am I heading? Am I even moving? This month I've had friends graduate, move away, get married, buy a home, have a baby shower, and get stationed in Germany. There are so many many changes. May is always the hardest month for me. It's the month of changes. My 10 year reunion is fast approaching and I find myself in a panic. Should I go? What do I even have to show for this past decade? The truth is I've done a lot. I may not have finished my degree and started my teaching career but I'm close. I've traveled the world. I've descipled people. I've prayed for miracles and watched as they became reality. I am still enchanted by the life that God has let me live. I'm not married but I'm not scared either. I'm open and ready. I've done well and while others may wonder what I've done with this time, I'm not ashamed to say I've served,I've made mistakes, I've been humbled, I've been stretched and torn, and I'm better for it all.