Monday, October 11, 2010

its been a while

So ...lets see

I've come to realize that i have been trusted with this life in this time. I can make what I will of it. Now the question that moves me. What next? I went to Ireland this summer. It was one of the greatest adventures of my life thus far. I was able to see ancient homes, churches, and a culture that was completely new to me. I had nights in the pub and afternoons in the garden. I was able to share that time with my family and I couldn't have imagined just how much I needed it. Joe and Mags Stenson were the sweetest couple there. They went out of their way to care for us and make us feel at home.

I some how made it through the month of weddings and came out of it happy and unscathed: which at my age and single status is a small miracle. I guess I didn't take time to realize just how important having girl friends has been. Layla made a speech at Dee Dee's wedding and she said that a friend is someone that you can say what you think that too? I thought I was the only one in the world who did that!.... and I think she is right. Thank you ladies for letting me know I am not the only girl in the world who thinks crazy thoughts, has insecurities, or is positive she is going to fall flat on her face and break her teeth. :) I love it....and I seem to be cherishing it more than ever now that friends are getting married and moving on to new stages of life. I find myself struggling with the feeling of being left behind, after our talks I see that I'm not the only one. Oddly that lessens the sting of it all. Its time for something new again. I've settled back into all that is comfortable and familiar. This world is changing before my eyes. I better get a move on. How do I find my vision. I need to figure that out before I do anything else.