The need to write

The truth is I need this. I need to write. I need to express so much that I've held in for so long. The truth is that I need to be honest with myself. I am not as indepedant as I thought, as strong as you assume. I'm fragile too. I am just as insecure. I don't always try to fix what is broken...I try to use it anyway. Sometimes I try to pretend my hurt away even though I know that solves nothing. I am great at sabbotage...at least when it comes to myself. I need a change. I need to change. Its a lonely place in this make believe world of false securities.